holiday from my real life
it has been a full week of blog-free fun, but not without reason. for the past week i have been entertaining four ghosts from heather's past. three of my girlfriends from highschool, as well as a friend of theirs from university have been making their way around asia the past month, and are now on the thai side of their journey. they stayed with me for one night and then rin and i moved them to the glorious 'summer hotel' (note: not so glorious) in phuket town. we have rented cars, been to miserable thai discos, been to the beach, eaten all sorts of food, brought them to school, introduced them to rin's family, taught them how to cook thai meals, showed them how to wai properly, been to a temple, and really trying to get them to see how life in thailand is for a farang.
abigale, erin, angie and jess have been amazing to have here. this has been a time when i have really been in a funk, and to see how they interact with my life here, and how rin interacts with them, i have learned so much. this has been a hard time for rin and i, and he has been a god about their visit. he takes them places on his bike, we went to pick up kendra (angie's sister) at the airport, 40 km away on motorbikes, he has driven us here and there, and yesterday i had the day off and we rented a car and went to krabi, and he was so amazing. i have learned a lot about rin the past few days.
that being said, their being here has also made me really homesick. they see my life here, and they have the luxury of being able to leave. they are going to be going in a few days, and they don't have to deal with this anymore...they are whisked off to the next beautiful place. i, however, will be here. who knows for how long. but i know that i can't leave yet.
on our way back from krabi last night, in the back of a pick up truck under the stars, rushing between giant rock formations, i talked to angie about rin and i. (a friend from waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back) she gave me her insight on rin and my relationship. while it is obvious that we love each other, their are so many obstacles. so many things that work only because we are in thailand. but if he was to ever go to north america, things would be hard. and if i ever left, there would be no possibility of keeping in touch. there is something so jolting when you realize that if their was a bump in the road, your relationship would fall apart.
i have some serious thinking to do about this next little while. i love him, but it's not possible to make it work. i know i need to go home, and probably this year. this weekend will be a turning point, i think. time to take him to the sea, sit him down in the shade and figure out our future.
we shall see. many photos documenting a crazy visit to be posted shortly.
abigale, erin, angie and jess have been amazing to have here. this has been a time when i have really been in a funk, and to see how they interact with my life here, and how rin interacts with them, i have learned so much. this has been a hard time for rin and i, and he has been a god about their visit. he takes them places on his bike, we went to pick up kendra (angie's sister) at the airport, 40 km away on motorbikes, he has driven us here and there, and yesterday i had the day off and we rented a car and went to krabi, and he was so amazing. i have learned a lot about rin the past few days.
that being said, their being here has also made me really homesick. they see my life here, and they have the luxury of being able to leave. they are going to be going in a few days, and they don't have to deal with this anymore...they are whisked off to the next beautiful place. i, however, will be here. who knows for how long. but i know that i can't leave yet.
on our way back from krabi last night, in the back of a pick up truck under the stars, rushing between giant rock formations, i talked to angie about rin and i. (a friend from waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back) she gave me her insight on rin and my relationship. while it is obvious that we love each other, their are so many obstacles. so many things that work only because we are in thailand. but if he was to ever go to north america, things would be hard. and if i ever left, there would be no possibility of keeping in touch. there is something so jolting when you realize that if their was a bump in the road, your relationship would fall apart.
i have some serious thinking to do about this next little while. i love him, but it's not possible to make it work. i know i need to go home, and probably this year. this weekend will be a turning point, i think. time to take him to the sea, sit him down in the shade and figure out our future.
we shall see. many photos documenting a crazy visit to be posted shortly.
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