just the words a girl needs from her big brother...
hey hez,
is your next contract in phuket as well? if not then maybe a changeof scenery may be good. i remember getting really ancy at the end ofmy stay in beijing, just being so frustrated with the way that peoplethink and live over there. it is an amazing culture (obviously i amgeneralizing things quite a bit but i am sure that there are some pretty close similarities beterrn china and thailand. was confucianism ever a dominant philosophy?), but often times i foundmyself longing for familiarity and people who think and act the sameway that i did. be careful that you dont stay in thailand justbecause it is supposed to be an amazing experience. i made most of the realizations about how much i learned when i was over there when icam back to north america, and i would expect the same to happen from you. you take from the situation what you will, you have no control over that, and if you are unhappy over there and cant imagine living there for another year than leave. what could possibly be the punishment for breaking a contract. there may be a clause for personal reasons. i am sure that you wouldnt be ther first person todo it. i am sure it is pretty tough to take a step back and assess the situation when you are smack dab in the middle of it.
as far as rin goes, what are you getting out of the relationship? it sounds like he is being a real prick. and i dont necessarily mean,what is he paying for, or what does he do for you, but more in the emotional sense, does he make you feel or want to be a better person? do you think moving out together is the right thing to do? if he is being that much of a lazy ass maybe you could kick him out for awhile, which will hopefully knock some sense into him and make him realize how lucky he is to have such an amazing person as yourself?you are an incredibly generous and caring person, and i know you other than yourself, but hez, when it comes down to it, you've gottalook out for #1. who, knows, maybe i am just talking out my ass but the brotherly instincts from your first few years on the school bus when i hear that my baby sister is miserable. i wish i could tell you to cheer up and everything would be okay, but life is chaos, and all we can do is try our best to cope and manipulate the curve balls thatget thrown our way. i miss you hez!
talk/write to you soon.
love chris
is your next contract in phuket as well? if not then maybe a changeof scenery may be good. i remember getting really ancy at the end ofmy stay in beijing, just being so frustrated with the way that peoplethink and live over there. it is an amazing culture (obviously i amgeneralizing things quite a bit but i am sure that there are some pretty close similarities beterrn china and thailand. was confucianism ever a dominant philosophy?), but often times i foundmyself longing for familiarity and people who think and act the sameway that i did. be careful that you dont stay in thailand justbecause it is supposed to be an amazing experience. i made most of the realizations about how much i learned when i was over there when icam back to north america, and i would expect the same to happen from you. you take from the situation what you will, you have no control over that, and if you are unhappy over there and cant imagine living there for another year than leave. what could possibly be the punishment for breaking a contract. there may be a clause for personal reasons. i am sure that you wouldnt be ther first person todo it. i am sure it is pretty tough to take a step back and assess the situation when you are smack dab in the middle of it.
as far as rin goes, what are you getting out of the relationship? it sounds like he is being a real prick. and i dont necessarily mean,what is he paying for, or what does he do for you, but more in the emotional sense, does he make you feel or want to be a better person? do you think moving out together is the right thing to do? if he is being that much of a lazy ass maybe you could kick him out for awhile, which will hopefully knock some sense into him and make him realize how lucky he is to have such an amazing person as yourself?you are an incredibly generous and caring person, and i know you other than yourself, but hez, when it comes down to it, you've gottalook out for #1. who, knows, maybe i am just talking out my ass but the brotherly instincts from your first few years on the school bus when i hear that my baby sister is miserable. i wish i could tell you to cheer up and everything would be okay, but life is chaos, and all we can do is try our best to cope and manipulate the curve balls thatget thrown our way. i miss you hez!
talk/write to you soon.
love chris
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