christmas sucks.

note to self: never spend another christmas working in thailand. i have spent the past week trying to make christmas special for those around me...especially my students. working my ass off, getting no sleep, spending lots of money, going shopping everywhere possible to find some f*ing candy canes or santa hats, sweating at the end of december, planning caroling, and no one even really gives a shit. no snow, no fun, lots of stress, no family, no hot chocolate, no christmas specials on television, no pretending santa is still real.

for fuck's sake, i just watched 'rudolph the red-nosed reindeer' in thai.

all i have received for christmas this year is one large headache and a lovely little heartburn.

amen to christmas in thailand.

(boo hiss.)